Friday, December 4, 2009

My Man

My Bear never seems to listen when I tell him, I don't want anything for my birthday or a holiday. Especially this year, we got our home for Pete's sake. Anyhow, Bear sent me his camera to replace mine (the one that decided to die just before Christmas). Along with a card, 2 SD cards and bottle of Beautiful (my perfume). He always finds a way around it. As in giving the girls money to go buy Mom a present or just having stuff shipped to the house. He's good at it you see, he has to be in order to get it by me! Would I change it? No, it adds to our playful side.
Of course the card made me cry, tears of love and happiness for the simple fact I love this man and he loves me with all of his heart. Ever hear of love at first sight? How about finding your soul mate? One true love? We fell in love the first time we met, knew in an instant he was the one for me. Some kind of strange feeling came over me, like a sign, a my neck is tingling hot and I have to walk away sign. Thought to myself, "What was that?!". His voice, his eyes, his aura, leather hat, denim shirt, and wrangler jeans. Oh let's not forget the one in a million smile, or the butt! Saw that as he was walking out the door, hoping he would come back soon, maybe the next night I worked. Sorry but it's true, I looked and I liked.
Everything was right!! I fell in love with a construction worker. Hard working, honest, good, true to his word, and good looking to boot. I wondered what would he see in me, a single Mom with 3 of my four kids to support, bar tending in a private club(not the naughty kind either)? I worked hard and loved my job and took care of my children, teaching them right from wrong and that without an education you won't get far. All of a sudden this tornado hit and turned our lives upside down and inside out. Tornado being Bear coming into our lives and staying, never fearing my independence or my children. Here's a single man with no kids of his own and he wants to see me?? What is wrong with this?? Nothing as I found out a little later. He always wanted to "help" me he would say, that was his way and still is his way of getting away with buying/giving me things I need or want. He has been there steady and true, through think and thin, good~bad~and ugly, with open loving arms for 3 years 5 months. Time has flown by, seems like yesterday he was meeting my little girls for the first time at the laundry mat (my dryer died). By the way shortly after that, he bought me a new dryer. This is a man I barely knew buying me a dryer, because I needed it, couldn't afford it and going to the laundry mat was eating up all the food and bill money. He knew this and took it upon himself to buy it, and come out to install it. What a man, telling you he is a good man isn't enough, he's mine though and I love him with all my heart. Over 3 years and we are still in love like we were when we first met. Sure we have our days where we might not like each other a whole bunch but we still love each other with everything we have! Communication and trust are 2 major components of our relationship, the rest falls into place. We were married just under 1 year ago. Poor bear had to wait until I was ready to take the plunge again. I knew he was the right man but being stubborn old me, I had to make sure we were both ready for this new chapter in our lives. Bear even asked the girls if he could marry me, how sweet is that? All 3 of course said yes and me too! Where has all the time gone? Now we have moved to da U.P. eh, started yet another chapter in our book that will I'm sure go by so fast we won't know what hit us. I guess that's what happens when you are struck by a tornado as strong and loving as our Bear! I love my true love, soul mate, best friend, Bear!!
Til next time..

Thursday, December 3, 2009

CRIME, Who gets paid for it?

Hmm....Who said crime doesn't pay?
Ask the crack heads that broke into my husbands truck last night!!!!
You go to bed thinking the locked truck you park outside is just fine.
Wake up to find the back window shattered and everything scattered!!!
You try to think of everything you normally keep in your truck so you can tell the
police when they arrive. But wait, when you call them, they tell you they're not coming?!?!
Which adds to your dismay. Go inside to talk to the hotel manager on duty, they tell you it's your own fault for parking there????
Go back out, check over your truck, find blood all over the back window and seat. Don't touch it, don't know what the doper has for diseases!! Your GPS is gone with home address in there, Cd's are gone, Binoculars gone! Not sure what else is missing cuz you don't have time to think, you have to go to work!! All for what, so they can go get high???? Addiction is so powerful, it can take a good person and change them into someone they would never be otherwise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I lived with one for many years, I know what it does. It destroys not only the person but everyone around them!!! They will do anything to get that high feeling, even loose everything they have, steal, lie cheat just to get high or drunk! Alcohol is no better!!!
My little Yooper girls want to get their friends together, gather up shot guns and go take care of those crack heads, Yooper style!!!! What little minds think at times like this. Mare Bear had a thought, they have the GPS that has out address in there, what happens if they come and break into my truck or our house??? They have the directions right to our home!!!!
Not likely they will show up here as they were most likely just looking for something to sell so they could get their fix!!
It's a bad world out there, not one I want my girls to ever know about! Too bad we can't put them in a bubble and keep them safe from everything!!!
What a way to start the day! My poor Bear works hard to get the things he wants and needs and this is what happens to honest hard working people!!!!
Til' next time

Wednesday, December 2, 2009


December 1st already! Where did the rest of the year go? Seems to have flown by like there is no tomorrow. Our year has been filled with so many exciting things. Girls(first time on a plane) and I flew to Arizona in the Spring. Poor little Pixie, thought she was going to have heart failure, she is deathly afraid of heights. She was a trooper though, plugged along with tear filled eyes as we got on planes to reach our destination. Last flight back to Detroit was a night flight where you can look out to see the city lights, all she kept saying "Mom it's so beautiful and peaceful, we can only fly at night the next time!". Before that flight she said she was never flying again!! Ever look into an 8 year olds teared up eyes and tell them they have to do something you know they don't want to do? It's just about as hard as delivering them! Mare Bear loved the flying and the whole adventure. There were so many new and different things to see and we didn't see a 1/4 of what I had planned.
We paid off our property in the U.P. in May and decided that we were ready for the big move from Trollville to Heaven. Looked at a place in June and started the whole process of getting the mortgage and house and everything that goes with it. Took many trips back and forth and finally had our home ready to move into Labor Day weekend. Our home is beautiful!!
August we moved our oldest out for 1 month and then she moved to Grandma's for what I think will only be a year. We will see. She is in her second year of college at a community college and looking to go to a big university to finish her schooling.
September 8th Mare Bear and Pixie started school at a brand new school! They joined Girl Scouts, mini cheer camp, and scrapbooking. They both have made friends quickly and love school, in fact they are on the A/B Honor Roll!
We have had so many visitors to our new home. Friends and family all agree we have a beautiful home. Only made one trip back to Trollville.
Now it's December, wow! Our slice of Heaven is decorated with lights and trees and ribbons. The prettiest time of year and my camera decides it doesn't want to work!! UGH!!! Haven't done a lick of shopping and don't really want to! I love this time of year but I am not a shopper, not one little bit! This month is filled to the brim with activities, family and fun! Little girls have their Thursday's full of scrapbooking and Girl Scouts, weekends are filled with shopping, wrapping and making gifts. This week add on a Christmas parade the girls are in for GS!! For me there is the same on the weekends, add cooking and baking to the list too. Besides Christmas there is my birthday, Anniversary and maybe a trip or 2, then January is right around the corner. Oh and not to mention that the girls will be on winter break for 16 DAYS!!!! What am I going to do with them for that many days?? Go crazy comes to mind. I will keep the busy, and maybe just maybe they will help me clean house! Ha who I am kidding?
Anyway, I hope your holiday season is filled with, family, friends, love and laughter.
Til' next time...

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Venting etc...

Thanksgiving here and gone. We had a wonderful meal with my parents even though it was an hour late. Oh well at least we were together and ate delicious food and too much of it.

Hubby was home all weekend. He pulled a muscle in his back at work so it was a VERY laid back weekend with lots of rest for him. I understand that when you are in pain, it's hard to be who you normally are and can be crabby, cranky, bitchy, needy, snippy, argumentative, take things the wrong way, etc... And he was all of that plus some. He was still like that last night. He tried apologizing to me and asked me to tell the girls he was sorry. I am hear to tell you it wasn't accepted too warmly after the 4 days of him being, ok, let's just say it a Butt*&%@!!! Don't get me wrong we love him more than anything in this world, the past 5 days have not been the greatest for us here. Normally when he's home it's happy and busy and filled with lots of love. He truly is a good, honest, giving, hard working, hard loving man, that normally has a soft spot for all of us girls he loves. Our bear was just not himself this trip home. Bear travels all over the U.S. for his job. He is a superintendent who works on Industrial chimney's for one of the largest company's in the world. A dangerous, mentally and physically demanding job. He works hard everyday and it shows when he gets hurt as he is not getting any younger or the fact he's been doing this job for over 30 years. He doesn't like leaving us and our new home to go to work which adds to his dismay. I truly understand all of the feelings he has, still doesn't make me or the girls like it when he acts like that.
Alright I vented not sure if I feel better or not.
Our tree is up, tallest tree I have ever had. Looks beautiful and adds a warm glow in the house on cold nights. Mare Bear and Pixie even put mini trees in their rooms this year with mini ornaments and lights and beaded garland. They were so proud of their creativity and I have to say I am too. We have snow on the ground once again this morning and the roads were like an iceskating rink. Our bus was 20 minutes late, good thing it wasn't too cold out there waiting. Girls were running around playing to keep warm. There is something about a dusting of snow that makes children light up.
Kayla is gearing up for finals for the 1st semester. She had a 6 page paper to do for English, received a 195/200!!!! Just got a call from her, A on Biology lab final!!She never ceases to amaze me!! Go Kayla Go!!!! I am so proud of her with all of her accomplishments. Four and one half years ago, where we were this would not have been possible.
When I stop to think about how our life is now and how much it's changed I am in aw! For some reason I have blocked out most of the time before 4 1/2 years ago. There were good memories in there somewhere. We have been so busy living life and making new memories and traveling. Love this life I have been given. Thankful? What do you think? Yes I am thankful for every moment, even the not so good ones.
Hope you all have a wonderful holiday season. Anyone want to do my Christmas shopping? I am a scrooge when it comes to shopping no matter what time of year it is.
No pictures this time, my camera for some reason has decided it will consistently take blurry out of focus pictures. It's making me insane. Normally my point and shoot, Kodak camera takes wonderfully clear shots, what is up with that? Hubby asked me what I wanted for my birthday - that's coming up faster than I'd like - and I replied "nothing". That changed this morning while trying to take pictures of the girls in their new hats! Sent him a text message telling him, I give up my "nothing" reply, has turned into an I want a new camera!!! It won't be the one I really want since I am too much of a penny pincher to spend that kind of money for something like that. It's not a necessity , it's a want and to me there is a HUGE difference. If it's a need that costs big bucks then I hesitate less, if it's just a want then I usually won't spend a lot unless it's something for someone else. We never take anything for granted and just like most people in America live pay check to pay check so when bear gets laid off we are hard up for cash to say the least. Not savers at all, we live for the moment which catches in a pickle every time! Darn it anyway. Some day I hope it will be different.
Well I have lots to do today and sitting here rambling on isn't getting them done. Til next time...